Angst

At a conference today. I sent her an e-mail from home last night, just inconsequential stuff about things tangential to the office, checked my inbox this evening and no reply. The disappointment! Of course rationally I've told myself that she may not have been at work today, or she may have replied to my work e-mail. Irrationally on the other hand, I've had a bad feeling ever since the day after we went to the wine bar. A feeling that I've somehow blown it. The first e-mail she sent me seemed cooler, although a second one seemed more enthusiastic (although this was actually an answer to an e-mail I'd sent her after the Dim-Sum trip - which on the other hand shows that she saved that and referred back to it, and her reply did agree to dinner at the Cinnamon Club and two movie trips...). Was it my second glass of wine that did the damage? (she doesn't drink, and I'm not going to if we ever go out again). Or the 10-minute dissertation on grammatical errors made by other people at work? (to be fair it is part of my job to pick these up). Not exactly seductive, athough she didn't look bored at the time and I did apologise the next day... have I appeared too keen? Not keen enough? Is she just not in the mood at present? (Her online diary has some entries reading "medication" for the past few days, maybe she's ill or depressed, although no, I've seen her laughing with other people, with a twinge of envy...). Is she just waiting till pay day (next Tuesday)? Should I remind her or would that make me look too desperate? Or will saying nothing make me look insufficiently interested?

What a tangle.

Meanwhile back at the ranch, we tried out Jessica Rabbit last night to fairly spectacular effect. Didn't get to sleep until about 2am, which certainly didn't aid my alertness at the conference. Still, one has to make sacrifices...

Short haircut on the way home. Tibbles, Bim's ex, cancelled our movie date on the grounds that he'd forgotten it and doublebooked, so I'm home. Bit more decorating prep then I have to go & collect Madame from her mother's...